No one to talk to

men-and-depression-16-638I have no one to talk to. I am a preacher by calling but that’s not all. I am a father and a husband too.

The words which I preach come from the Bible but it seems to be the least interesting to those in attendance. The Bible just doesn’t hold people’s interest today, unless you can bring flashy performance and video into your sermon too. At least, that is what some churches do

Nobody cares to know how it feels. Some days after a sermon it feels like I have been beaten with a stick. Then there are some days it feels as if everything went right.

The only people who I can talk to about this is Jesus and my family, because nobody else cares, except I don’t want to burden them with my depression, my demons, my feelings.

I am not alone in this of course. Many pastors go through depression, sometimes very deep. C.H. Spurgeon experienced depression so deep that it laid him low for days at a time.

1 Peter 1:6: “Wherein ye greatly rejoice though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations.” The heaviness which Peter spoke of was depression and heaviness of heart, during a time when the church was beginning to feel persecuted later in the first century. 

Sometimes people either don’t want to hear any truths from the Bible or they only want to hear good tidings which make them feel good about their lives. When you tell people the truth about their actions or anything that they don’t want to hear, then they turn away from you and your message. Many of God’s prophets in time past went through entire seasons, decades even, in which they were not heard or ignored because the people didn’t want to hear it.

In the world around us today, these same feelings are evident. From the government in Washington, DC to little towns all around the nation and all over the world it seems that much of what the people hear is nonsense. The news which is reported is about nit-picking and something which someone tweeted last week. If there were any true ground-breaking news, it seems to get swept under the heading of “other news” and not as a headline.

Seek out God and His Wisdom while it can be found because in the days and weeks and years to come, the governments may require that all of His Word be burnt and that Christianity be muzzled and fearfully spoken of.

 

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Loss and living

We look at life as a journey many times. It has been compared to a road or a trail or just a long walk. When you have walked that road with someone for a long time and then they detour into eternity, leaving you here, that trail becomes lonely and not very inviting at all. As the song says, “you will never walk alone”, which is referring to having a relationship with Jesus. He will always walk with you, even into eternity.

The problem that we have with our walk through life is that our partner, spouse, friend, lover is here physically with us. We can touch them, talk to them, feel their embrace and just know that they are there. Walking with Jesus takes faith. Walking with Him daily takes more faith because you have to acknowledge Him for waking you today and giving you the ability to go on, even if your spouse or significant other isn’t there. This is something that He will do for you, but you have to depend on Him for it.

Don’t give up on life just because someone who you love isn’t there. Don’t quit because you feel as if your life is over, even if you feel like quitting. Those feelings are trying to make you give up and they come from Satan and his followers! Don’t let them tell you how to live or how to stop living! Your life is full, abundant and free in Jesus! Claim it, follow Him, read the Psalms which are mostly about Jesus anyway, His Word will give you the strength and the purpose to carry on when you don’t feel like it at all!

If your partner was a Christian, you will see them again. Eternity is a long, long time and when we enter into it we will find people that we never even knew in this life. But, they know us because they are part of our family even if we didn’t meet them. God loves us all, so the only thing that we should do is return that love by living our life for Him until we are called home.

Mourning

Life has a funny and an awful way of sticking it to you when you least expect it. There are two families that I have know for a long time who are hurting in the worst way imaginable today…actually since Saturday evening. They both lost someone that they love dearly in a car accident. It is not my way or responsibility to try to imagine their feelings, because unless you have had a child…your only child, to die then you can’t possibly understand.

You can sympathize, but sympathy only goes so far. God has both of these beautiful young ladies in His care now because they were both Christians and that is a comfort. But, the pain that is being felt is unbearable unless you lean on Him. The mourning that is happening now and in the days and weeks to come can only be born by these families through prayer and the love of God pouring into their lives from the prayers of their friends.

Some say that being a Christian is a crutch to lean on, it is because God gives you His strength to get through times which others would buckle under. We are not weak being Christians because our God is the Creator and Sustainer of the universe! He can hold our world or our Sun in His hand, yet He can also hold you or me and give us the love and the peace that no one can understand except another Christian. God loves each of us enough that when we are hurting, it hurts Him too. He comes along beside us and carries us through these difficult days and weeks when there is no possible way for anyone else to help.

Being a success in life is great, but what happens when a storm hits you or your family like the wreck that took two beautiful young ladies away to Heaven? Your success doesn’t look very successful at that point does it? Nothing in your life matters, eating, going to work, sleeping all seem to be unimportant because all you can think of if the pain that you feel. The hope, the knowledge that the one that is missing is in Heaven doesn’t give you much comfort either. Because you can only feel the pain.

You are numb and in shock for a long time. This pain won’t go away with an aspirin because it is deep inside your soul and it will not go away. Only God can help in this instance. Coming to Him and in His Presence is the only way to begin to heal the empty space, the empty feeling which is there. It really won’t ever go away but holding onto your faith in Him, getting closer to Him is the only real cure, the only real help that there is. Trust in Him, seek Him out for your days of intense pain. He knows what it feels like and He is the only One, the only Person who can help.